Asuco's Diary

落ち込んだ日だった。
There were something depressing for me today.

しばらく悩んでいたことだけど、けじめも必要。
I was considering about this for a while but I needed to draw a clear line for myself.

父に報告の電話をしようと受話器を持った時、頭をよぎった。
今回も、心配させることを伝えて、自分はどんな一言を待っているのか・・
When I tried to make a phone call to my dad to tell him about it, it crossed my mind that....
This time also, why am I waiting of his words for me, even telling him that about making him worry about me.

落ち込んだ時いつも一言、言ってくれる父。一言だけど、なんだか励みになる、大きな一言。
He always gives me some words when I am down. It is always just one word, but it is deep and some encouragement for me.

でもさ、私は父が困った時、励ましの言葉、かけてあげられたことあるだろうか。。
But,,,,have I ever been able to give him some encouragement words when he got some problem?

いつも自分ばっかりだった。
I'm always preoccupied with myself... I know it is a mistake.